Yesterday, I prayed a prayer that I always pray only this time as I wrote it; it hit me in a new way. I prayed “Lord, empty me of me and fill me with the power of Your Spirit.” That is my desire. I long to be FILLED up with the power of God in my life. I want to walk in HIS wisdom, revelation, insight and discernment. I want to be FILLED UP to overflowing! Springs of living water! I want to be so FULL of Him that it SPLASHES out to those around me!
Although that has been my constant prayer, for months, I have found myself in a severe drought. Completely empty, dried up, depleted. I have been crying out to God to meet me in this desert place. I have sat in Isaiah 40 and it has been my heart’s cry.
“A voice of one calling: “In the wilderness prepare the way for the LORD[a]; make straight in the desert a highway for our God.[b] 4 Every valley shall be raised up, every mountain and hill made low; the rough ground shall become level, the rugged places a plain. 5 And the glory of the LORD will be revealed, and all people will see it together. For the mouth of the LORD has spoken.” (Isaiah 40:3-5)
I have been begging God to prepare the way in my wilderness, make straight in my desert a highway for Him to move in my life! Remove every obstacle that is blocking me from Him. I want His glory to be revealed in my life! I want HIM more than anything else, yet I have felt so dry, so empty, and so alone. I am becoming so aware of the battles I face, the sin and unbelief in my own life that has blocked me from moving forward. I have been in a place of being completely broken & poured out before God…begging Him to meet me.
Yesterday, as I prayed empty me…& fill me with YOU, I realized I always pray that prayer focusing on the FILLING of Him, not realizing how painful it is to be emptied of ME. In His still, sweet voice He showed me that He has been answering my fervent prayer. He has been emptying me of ME so that He can fill me up with HIM! So often I pray that prayer not fully aware of how very much there is in me that needs to GO! When I pray for God to empty me, do I really mean it? Am I willing to go through the painful process of being emptied so that I can be filled up with His Power, His Spirit?
“Woe to me!” I cried. “I am ruined! For I am a man of unclean lips, and I live among a people of unclean lips, and my eyes have seen the King, the LORD Almighty.” (Isaiah 6:5)
Yes, LORD! Empty me of me and fill me up with the power of your SPIRIT! Let Your Glory be displayed in my broken and empty life! Let it FLOW!